I took a deep breath and let the silence linger for a moment.
Flashes of memories raced through my mind before I finally spoke up, "I came here for Bonnie."
Neil seemed caught off guard. He fell silent, probably calculating the timeline. I had mentioned to him before that I had met Bonnie at the café even before he did. So, he was likely puzzled why I would seek her out before he had the chance to meet her.
As expected, he asked, "Why were you looking for Bonnie? I hadn't even met her then."
"Right, you hadn't met her. Do you remember what I told you when I brought up divorce?" I ventured, uncertain if he remembered any of the words I had said.
After all, he rarely took my words to heart.
Neil looked down, his lashes casting shadows over his eyes, concealing his gaze. After a moment of quiet, he said, "You mentioned I would regret not agreeing to the divorce, that I would beg you to leave."
Lifting his head, his eyes fixed on me with a sharpness, as if doubting something, yet not daring to believe it fully.
Neil was smart. He could piece things together easily, though sometimes his conclusions might seem far-fetched. But in this world, anything was possible, right?
He remained silent, prompting me to be straightforward, "Neil, I've died once. Do you believe that? There really is such a thing as a second chance in this world."
"Irene, what are you talking about?" Neil's voice grew stern, his lips moving with a hint of severity.
"I died and came back to life. After coming back, I wanted a divorce. Do you understand? I knew you would fall for Bonnie, that you would go to great lengths to push me away, so the first thing I did after coming back was to make way for you two!" My voice wasn't loud, but every word clearly reached Neil's ears. I watched his handsome face register disbelief.
Such a clever and proud man, seldom showing such shock, for he liked to think he had everything under control.
My rebirth was something he could never have imagined.
In this scientific era, anyone claiming to be reborn might sound absurd.
Neil took a deep breath and turned to look out the café's window. Night had fallen, the streets alive with people, the café's business seemingly picking up with the added customers around us.
Especially not in this life, where he had developed feelings for me, different from his past life's emotions. If he truly harbored feelings for me now, then the actions of his past self would seem monstrously cruel to him.
But I didn't want to stop. I wanted him to see the depth of another reality, continuing, "You were at the ribbon-cutting for Bonnie's family's restaurant, their establishment boosted by your investment, ranking among the top in Rosemont. Ada's culinary skills finally had a platform to shine…"
"Enough, stop!" Overwhelmed, Neil stood up, his eyes reddening slightly, his voice hoarse, "Irene, if you don't want to give me the child, just say so. You don't have to concoct such a story to unsettle me!"
He still thought I was making it all up.
I flashed a thin smile, "Are you actually in disbelief, or are you just lying to yourself? Think about it. When I first brought up the idea of getting a divorce, didn't my actions seem... off to you? So bizarre you couldn't make heads or tails of it, maybe even thought I'd lost my marbles?"
Neil's chest heaved visibly, a testament to the monumental effort he was putting into keeping his emotions in check. The reddening of his eyes, however, betrayed the turmoil inside. Was he repulsed by the person I had become in our shared history?
"You've lost it, you're still out of your mind!" Neil clenched his fists, closed his eyes for a brief moment, and then reopened them with a heavy sigh. "I do owe you an apology. Let's not talk about this anymore!"
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