Shifted Fate (Amy) novel Chapter 445

“You can’t mean that.” I hit her arm, but she shook her head.

“You don’t understand. We handled you, but I was terrified you were going to die. Having a heat without a mate was bad enough, but adding your shattered heart on top of it nearly did kill you.” Her face was a mask of rage. “There were a few days were you refused to eat or drink. You whittled down to nothing.” She looked down at her hands. “We you came to, your wolves were fighting for your life, so you didn’t see much of a difference. But at the height of your heat, your heart stopped beating.” Toya met my eyes. "But even after all of that. I knew Rowan was doing it because he cared for you and didn’t want to ruin you." She nodded as she sighed. “It took a long time for me to realize that.”

I nodded. “Yeah. Me too.” I sat back against the sofa. “It took almost a year for me to stop hating him. For the heat, for pulling away. And then the graduation happened, and I was flung back to the pain and anger I felt.” I rubbed my face. “I don’t know how I am going to face him…” I trailed off and then shook myself. “I don’t even know if he still cares about me. Or how Thoth feels.” I groaned. “Fuck, I don’t even know how I truly feel.”

“Well…” Toya stood, turned, and pulled me up. She turned me to the stairs and pushed me. “Maybe you should go read those letters and figure it out.”

I stumbled to the stairs and stopped. I looked back at her. “I’m…terrified.”

She smiled softly at me. “Why?”

“Because what if I like Rowan and Thoth?” She laughed.

“Two men to pick from? Oh, no.” Toya waved her hands in the air. “Fuck, I’d be okay with just one.”

I laughed. “Not what I meant.”

Her face sobered up. “I know. But you are worrying about something happening that’s already happening.” She walked over to me and cupped my face. “You do already like both men. And I know that sounds scary. But you can’t change it. You need to focus on how much you care about them…and how much they care about you.” I stiffened, and she laughed. “Stop worrying about it. First things first, read the letters. It will help you understand everything better…hopefully.” She spun me around and pushed me up the stairs.

“But Carly…”

“Is fine with us.” Toya laughed at me. “We all understand that you are busy until this is all over. We signed up for it. And Wendy and I explained it to Carly. As did you? As did your mom. She understands. We understand. Now get your ass upstairs and figure out if the man you love is on the same page.”

I wanted to puke. “What if he’s not?”