“There’s nothing left between us,” Briony said, her voice as calm and even as ever. “Whether I forgive him or not—it makes no difference to me. If he lives, the child still has a father, and that’s all that matters for the child’s sake. If he dies, maybe the child will feel the loss, but children grow up. Eventually, they all learn that death comes for everyone.”
“Is it because of Rosita that you won’t forgive him?” Lorna’s tone grew urgent. “Honestly, Stewart didn’t care that much about Rosita. Everything he did with her was just for show, nothing more!”
Briony turned and gazed out the window.
Lorna kept pressing on. “It wasn’t a coincidence that Rosita went back home. Stewart set the whole thing up—”
“Don’t.” Briony cut her off, turning to meet Lorna’s eyes. “I used to care about Rosita because I loved Stewart. Now I don’t love Stewart anymore, so whatever happened between him and Rosita doesn’t matter to me.”
“But you only divorced because of her, didn’t you?”
Briony frowned. “Is that what he told you?”
Lorna shook her head. “Actually, he doesn’t really talk about you anymore. The only thing he ever says is that we shouldn’t bother you. Coming here today was my own idea, so please don’t blame him for it…”
“Lorna,” Briony interrupted again, her voice quiet but steady, “did you look into my life?”
Lorna froze, caught off guard. “How… how did you know?”
“The way you look at me now—it’s different,” Briony replied, a faint smile curling at her lips. “So, you know about me seeing a therapist, too?”
Lorna fell silent.
“Are you pitying me now?” Briony asked.
“That’s… not it,” Lorna stammered, rubbing her forehead awkwardly. “It’s just, I think both you and Stewart have had such a hard time. Neither of you came from a happy family. Seeing what you’ve both been through, I almost feel like being an orphan isn’t so bad. I met my brother at the orphanage. We’re not related by blood, but we trust each other more than anyone in the world.”
“The wounds from childhood take a lifetime to heal,” Briony said quietly. “And if that healing depends on someone else, I don’t think it counts as healing at all. What I need is to rescue myself. Stewart should do the same.”
Briony never did promise Lorna that she would try to talk sense into Stewart.
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