The Playboy’s Downfall novel Chapter 61

ISLA

Like every princess in a fairy tale, they all deserve a kiss from their prince charming. I got one. I experience having one. The difference was, I am a princess, I found my prince charming, but I knew that we’re not bound to the happily ever after.

I am being delusional to have Zero in my life but the truth always showed me that I can not have him. No matter how I try, I cannot have him. He even clears it. But every girl deserves to dream, right?

Can’t I?

I can dream, right? For just once in my life, I knew I have the right to claim something.

When Zero let go and stared at me, tears fell from my eyes.

“I’m sorry,” he uttered. There he goes again with his sorry, sorry, sorry—as if he did something to me.

I wiped the tears that fell on my cheeks with the back of my hand. “Why do you keep saying sorry to me? You didn’t do anything. And I’m sorry for acting weird today. It’s just that I’m adapting to your mood. Now, I will ask you this,” my eyes never left his, “are we still fine—I mean our agreement—”

“I want to stop the agreement,” he cut in which makes my eyes grow bigger because of surprise.

My forehead creased. “W-Why?” I stuttered.

Zero gazed in front while his left hand grasped the steering wheel. My eyes started to blur again.

I looked up and wiped my eyelid. I don’t want to lie for myself—I am hurting. It seems like a knife was pierced into my heart.

“I thought that this is not good between us. Especially that you have feelings for me,” he stated, still his eyes were in front.

If he’s sincere and if he meant what he said, then why can’t he look into my eyes?

“Say that while looking into my eyes,” I uttered. I don’t care if I sound so demanding but this is what it is. We’re breaking up—oh, damn, self, you’re not even in a relationship, the other corner of my mind shouted.

Yeah, we are just in a relation-SHIT!

Zero then turned to me, piercing his emotionless stares—I can see my reflection through his eyes—it was blank and it seems like it was taking me to the dark.

“I am sorry but I think we can’t continue this. I am afraid that I will just hurt you because I can’t return the love—”

“That’s not the point, Zero,” I scoffed. I laughed, sarcastically. “I agree with this and I am aware—I knew my place. I am not demanding you to do anything—even to love me back.” Damn, tears! I wiped them away again. “So, what if I have feelings for you? Did I demand your love? Did I ask you to love me back? So, you are aware that I am falling—”

“That’s why I want us to stop—I want us to stop doing this. I don’t want the feeling that you’re hurting—let’s just stop this. I was about to stop this after that night in the hotel but mom ask to bring you to her—I don’t know, okay, she said to me, she wants to see you,” he asserted.

“Hmmm…” I moaned, closing my eyes. It’s gentle, warm and I am possessed. His lips move, gently over mine, seeming to savor every inch of my lips. His left hand went into my waist and pulled me closer to him.

Sharing passionate kisses inside the car is one of my dreams for my future boyfriend and now, I am having it with Zero. I don’t want to overthink feeling the pain because of the truth that after this day, we’re over—I will not see him again.

If I will jive to his words earlier, he was aware that I am already falling for him. And he doesn’t want to hurt me. However, what he will do after this, will break me into pieces.

The fact that I wish that he will love me back will never happen. And of course, one-sided love will never win.

I need to accept the consequences of loving him. And will forever treasure every moment that we shared. From hot sex to gentle one.

When he let go, he held my hand with his right one while he maneuver the steering wheel with his left.

“You don’t have to pretend to be my boyfriend in front of your mom, okay?”

Zero smiled. Okay, the Zero that I wanted to see is back. And sad truth is, this will be the last day that I will see him like this.

“I wanted to try my acting skills and surprise mom with them. So, it’s fine. I am your boyfriend the whole day and you are my girlfriend,” he said as he glanced at me for a second.

I pressed my lips and could feel my burning cheeks. “O-Okay,” I muttered and looked outside the window. And when I glanced at our hands again.