ETHAN
She threw herself at me and hugged me tightly. I was taken back by her behaviour, I wanted to push her away, but my heart started beating radically, stupid disloyal organ! “Am sorry.” She whispered, I felt myself calmed down, my heart started to slow and stabilise.
What the fuck was going on with me, that was not what I went there for. “Please, forgive me, I was just scared you would leave me.” My arms moved on their own and I found myself hugging her back, which was when I knew I was done for.
I liked her more than I realized, my behaviour, the sudden anger even with Olivia who always knew how to calm me down. How to get me to settle, her tricks didn’t work because she was not what I needed, that, right there, was what I needed.
“Don’t ever do that again or I will walk, and you will never see me again.” Was I ever going to be able to do such a thing when I wasn’t coping when we broke up and had not seen or spoken to each other for a week. I didn’t think so.
“Not again, I wasn’t coping without you, I missed you too much.” My heart warmed, the warmth spread across my chest, and I knew that was where I belonged, to whom I belonged. I was never going to tell her that though.
The doctor was right, true feelings were different from what I felt for Olivia. I think she was talking about how I was feeling right at that moment. Content, at ease like everything was well with the world again.
She was what I needed to feel whole and saine again. It was not Olivia’s apology that I needed but hers. “Am here now.” my hold tightened around her, it felt like if I dared loosen my hold on her, she was going to disappear from my life again.
“Can we try again? I promise to be more understanding this time and trust you more.” Those were ordinary words; same words Ethan and Olivia has said to me once at some point in our friendships. But why did they sound different coming from her.
Why did they feel like they had a different meaning than what I knew? The doctors were right, with the right person, even the most mundane thing feels like the most special thing in the world.
“Please, Ethan, I can meet with Olivia and her husband too. I will let them grill me as much as they want, do as many background checks as they want. As long as I get to be with you again, those things don’t matter to me.”
A smile formed on my lips; I was happy. I pulled out of the hug and looked at her. god! she was one beautiful creature! I couldn’t believe she wanted to be with me. “Of course, we can try again but I don’t want us to meet with them just yet. I just want it to be just us for now, then we can meet them again at a later stage.”
“Oh, don’t worry, there is nothing wrong, I just came to make sure you two made up. you have been a pain since you two broke up.”
“Go home, Nick.” Just as I was about to close the door, he blocked it with his foot. I got annoyed and opened the door. “What!”
He laughed, annoying the shit out of me. “So, are you going to tell Olivia that you fixed things?” I didn’t want to think about Olivia.
“Your silence tells me that you still want to make her feel guilty.” He raised an eyebrow, and I said nothing.
He ran his hand through his hair. “I am not here to tell you what to do, but she is hurting, she lost Lupita and her grandma. She can’t handle losing you too man. I know you will fix thing with her in your own time. But letting her wallow in misery like this is not right too. If you are going to forgive her, then do it sooner rather than later.”
What right did he have to lecture me. “Ethan, I have wronged you many times and Olivia is the only other person you know always had your back even back when we were married. Don’t let this ruin your relationship. Say hi to Emily for me.” he turned and walked away.
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