"I want to..." Xavier coughed lightly, "I want to see Zena."
James originally thought that Xavier was going to tell him something else, and he was stunned when he heard this, "What?"
"I said that I want to see Zena."
After a long while, James finally squeezed out a few words, "Xavier, are you out of your mind?"
Xavier finally disentangle himself from the past, and James was very delighted. He was glad that Xavier could mention Zena's name so naturally. After all, if someone was always unhappy about something or was unwilling to mention it, no matter it was because of care or hatred, it was not a good thing.
Just now, when James heard Xavier say that he had fallen in love with a girl, he was happy for him, but...
Was it because Xavier still cared about Zena?
"No." Xavier shook his head, "Jimmy, I know you may be a little surprised, but... in fact, I haven't made up my mind, so I came here to talk to you about it."
"What do you want me to say?" James looked at Xavier, "I think you'd better not see her."
As soon as he said this, he added, "What can you do even if you see her? Do you want to be hurt and cheated by her again? Now that she has been punished, why do you have to make trouble for yourself?"
He knew that a man should be more broadminded, but he couldn't be forbearing to Zena.
Zena was so hateful. She not only hurt Xavier, but also wanted to hurt Elizabeth. She even let him take the blame for so many years.
As soon as he thought of what Zena had done, he was very mad. He would have beaten her a long time ago if she weren't a woman.
"Jimmy, I know what you are thinking." Xavier sighed softly, "But, listen to me first."
James wanted to refuse, but he restrained himself when he looked at Xavier, "Mm."
"What happened before... is something of the past. Perhaps, I had a long and painful time indeed. To put it bluntly, when she was imprisoned, I still hated her. At that time, I was thinking, if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be in despair."
"But later, didn't she ask Elizabeth to meet her? Elizabeth told me something about her roughly. Perhaps, she asked for it and she's not worthy of my sympathy. However, after I went to the house she rented for me, I could feel how considerate she was."
"To be honest, I was really touched by her. Although I don't really like to make friends and don't seem to be enthusiastic on the surface, I'm not as cold as a puppet."
"In particular... I met that girl, didn't I? If Zena didn't do that, how could I meet the girl? Maybe I would marry someone else, and maybe I would be with Zena, but my heart would never be stirred because of a girl."
"Elizabeth said that Zena was having a hard time, and she said something else... I want to see Zena, because yesterday..."
Xavier fell silent. James frowned, "What happened yesterday?"
"She begged me several times and only hoped that I could go to see Zena... Therefore, I thought that I might as well go to see her. I won't suffer any losses. Now, I don't hate Zena anymore."
After that, Xavier chuckled again, "I don't hate her anymore. To be exact, I may be a little grateful to her. I fall in love with someone for the first time because of her. Even if... I haven't confessed my love to that girl yet." "Moreover, I can understand why Elizabeth went to see her at that time. Of course, I may not be as kindhearted as she is."
Hearing this, James was silent for a long time, and he seemed to have changed his mind.
"It seems that you've made up your mind. Since you've decided it, why did you tell me about it?" "Didn't I just say that? I haven't made up my mind completely, but I'm likely to see her."
"Mm." James nodded, "Since you think it's better to meet her once, do as you want."
Xavier had said so much. In fact, he was persuading himself, right? The things between him and Zena couldn't be explained clearly with several words.
Of course, he didn't stop Xavier in the end. In fact, he just thought that it was rare for Xavier to keep his original intention after experiencing so many things.
"Mm."
"You haven't seen her yet. If you feel bad when you see her, you'd better leave quickly."
"Okay, I know."
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