Avon became more anxious and said in a more worried tone, "Alaina? Are you listening to me?"
Alaina reached out and wiped her tears. She took two deep breaths and felt that she had calmed down before she said, "Yeah."
"So why don't you speak?" As soon as Avon asked, he said in a hurry, "No! Alaina, you're strange! Did he... bully you? Is that right?"
Alaina closed her eyes hard, "What nonsense are you talking about?"
Avon sighed heavily, "Alaina, I know that you are lying to me, right?"
"Avon...."
"Alaina, I... want to tell you something."
"Okay."
"I..." Avon hesitated for a moment but still said, "I don't want to study anymore."
Alaina was stunned, "What?"
"Alaina, don't be so excited. Can you listen to me first? Let me finish my words." Avon laughed bitterly, "Yesterday, I didn't agree to let you go there. Today, Mrs. Liu told me about your decision. Do you know how I felt after hearing that?"
"I feel so sorry for you. It's true. I did something wrong. But I'm a man after all. So what if I don't study? I’m no longer a child. I can go out to work."
"You cooked for that b*stard Elroye and begged him with pleasant words because of me. I know that you did all these for my own good. You even live in the man's house because of me. Even if you don't tell me, I know that he must have threatened you. Otherwise, how could you go there?"
"You are a woman, so I know what he wants to do to you. I admit that I persuaded you at that time, but you insisted on going, and I did not stop you desperately because..." He paused for a moment before continuing, "Because I was actually selfish. I was really afraid that I couldn't study anymore. The selectors of the national team will come to our school soon. My grades have always been good, so I'm very likely to be chosen. Therefore, I did not try my best to stop you."
"Alaina, I admit that I was selfish, so I pretended to know nothing, and I didn't want to ask what would happen after you got there. But... as time went by, I started to worry about you. I didn't want you to be bullied by him and I was afraid that you didn't know what to do after you was bullied."
"You said that you wouldn't go back for the time being. At that time... I really regretted it. Later, you really didn't come back... I waited for you for a whole night. I was overwhelmed by uneasiness, guilt, and worry. I was so restless."
"Alaina, I regret it. I shouldn't have agreed to let you go there. I should have tied you at home. You know I practice sports. I have great strength. If I really wanted to keep you there, it was really easy."
"In the morning, the school called me and said that I could go back to school. At that moment, I couldn't tell what kind of feeling I had, really. Maybe I was happy, because... you know that our family is poor, and dad and mom are very tired. If I can't study, they will be dealt a great blow. However, I didn't seem so happy, because you hadn't come back."
Naturally, she was very touched.
It was just that she did not expect Avon to say these things to her... Well, he said that he had a selfish idea yesterday.
After listening to it, she did not feel unhappy. On the contrary, she was relieved because Avon told her the truth.
In fact, it was human nature to be selfish, wasn't it? Avon was so young, and he could have a very good future. They both know that their family was poor. It was understandable that he wanted to be outstanding and didn't want to muddle along without any aim. Moreover, the fact that he couldn't continue to go to school two days ago must have cast a shadow in his heart.
In her opinion, he was only a child. It was normal for a child to have a selfish idea, wasn't it?
"Avon, don't talk about this anymore. I heard what you said and understand what you're thinking." She took a deep breath and tried to say as if nothing had happened, "But, you have to continue to study."
"Alaina!"
"Stop it." Alaina sighed, "Avon, you should understand that it's good for you to continue to study. I... am not so capable. Godfather and godmother are looking forward to your success. What's more, only when you become outstanding and have a promising future can they be able to rely on you when they're old."
"The selectors of the national team will come to your school soon. If you don't study now, are you willing to give up your hope? Won't you regret it in the future?"
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