Bai Meiyue’s words caused Bai Zhan to snap out of his thoughts. He raised his head and looked at his sister with a hint of a frown on his face. He said to Bai Meiyue, "How can you say such a thing? You were only looking out for your nephews; how can I blame you for that?"
Though Bai Zhan was upset over what happened, he was not unreasonable like Feng Qing, who would blame Bai Meiyue for his mistakes. He was the one who took his sons downtown, and it was his mistake that he didn’t keep an eye on them. If he were careful, then his sons would certainly be safe and sound.
But he was too confident and thought that he could deal with the zombies and keep his sons safe as well.
Bai Zhan knew that the one who was at fault was he; how could he hold Bai Meiyue accountable then?
"Wasn’t I the one who suggested that you take the two of them with you and teach them how to fight with zombies?" said Bai Meiyue with a roll of her eyes. She then said to her brother, "If I hadn’t suggested such a thing, then Qian Han and Jiuque would have stayed at home, and nothing would have happened to them. The fault lies with me, does it not?"
Bai Jixuan jumped to his feet when he heard Bai Meiyue blame herself. He pointed to himself and said, "What do you mean by it’s your fault? How could it be your fault? If anything, it’s my fault that I didn’t go with my elder brother and allowed such a thing to happen. If I were careful, then not a single zombie would have dared to get close to Qian Han and Jiuque. I should have followed you."
Bai Zhan was speechless when he heard the words of his two younger siblings. His gaze flickered from Bai Meiyue to Bai Jixuan, and he sighed, "You two... why are you adding trouble to the situation when it’s already problematic enough? How can this be related to the two of you when I, as their father, failed in taking care of them?"
"Ah Zhan, they are not adding trouble." Mother Bai, who had been sitting quietly on the side, could no longer stay silent when she saw that her son was still blaming himself. She raised her head and looked at her eldest son before saying to him, "They are trying to make you understand that what happened had little to do with you. You did your best while trying to protect your sons. What happened was something that was simply out of your control; whom can you blame for it? You didn’t know that the zombies were hiding or that they had gotten smarter. It’s not like you deliberately left Qian Han and Jiuque behind."
"Of course, I didn’t!" How could he when he wished to keep his sons close to him all the time? They were so precious and had suffered so much at the hands of his wife that he wished he could give them the moon if they asked for it. How could he leave them behind to suffer at the hands of zombies?
His mother was rather against it and even stopped speaking to him because of this. She told him that the matter could have been easily sorted if he had just brought Feng Qing to the hospital if she was really involved with him, and if something really happened between the two of them.
However, because he was feeling guilty and helpless, he allowed that woman to step into his life.
Mother Bai harumphed. "I have no intention of saying anything to you either, but who asked you to act like a sissy all the time? You should learn something from your sister; she killed more than ten people in a day and yet she didn’t brood over it and accepted that there was nothing wrong with what she did—"
"She killed what?!"
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